Books, Television

Dirk Gently’s Holistic Detective Agency


“A thumping good detective-ghost-horror-who dunnit-time travel-romantic-musical-comedy-epic” – The Author

It wasn’t until the series came on Netflix that I remembered how much I loved this book. Even though the two only seem to have a main character in common. As most things concocted by Douglas Adams the humour is hugely in the absurdity of it all. The recent show feels like a fever dream mash up of doctor who and Scott Pilgrim.

I didn’t know this until I googled the book to get the above photo, but Dirk Gently began its life as an episode of the amazing long running and much beloved Doctor Who television program.  To be honest I’ve fallen out of love with the good Doctor in the last few years. I just got bored with it, and was unable to get passed newest regeneration. Dirk Gently (the show) is a good replacement. Plus there is a really cute dog.


About Me

Sex and the not so single girl…

From this title I am sure you are expecting some kind of Carrie Bradshaw monologue… well, I’ll try not to disappoint.

I come from a family where I am considered a prude. My mom always told me to put on more make up or show off a bit more of what I was given. (in a loving and endearing way) My parents will be the first ones to tell you that the best vacation of their lives happened at Hedonism. Through the lens of my life, I am downright puritanical.

I have friends, female friends, who are open about their love for pornography. Who use their favourite porno as an icebreaker at parties… I have never been that girl. As a woman with more curiosity than I can manage, I have explored that world. I have looked at images and films meant to arouse and I feel that my imagination along with the real stories I have read from the porn production world do not allow me to disassociate enough to enjoy such an enterprise.

I prefer my eroticisim in long form.  I love the story. I want to see the hesitation and intimacy of holding hands for the first time… the slow lingering first caress of hidden flesh. I want a story that I can close my eyes and imagine my self in. With the written word as opposed to something that is image based… It’s possible.  I am able to imagine MYSELF, instead of a busty blonde in cake face makeup and a neon g string… Reality, is sexy.

I have a healthy sexual appetite, (sorry to the family reading this who still see me as a blonde 7 year old obsessed with free willy, but honestly lets free that willy, amiright?)  I am  NOT a prude or a puritan. I have seen the buzzfeed posts of pornstars before the make up and prefer those women. I understand the want for beauty, but the narrative needs to change… The moments I feel sexiest to myself and my partner are when I feel the most like ME.

I just spent a decent amount of time arguing the merits of erotic fiction and why it has mass appeal to women and I think a huge contributing factor is the freedom of imagination. I feel that with the written word we are more able to imagine ourselves as the protagonist in the story. I feel that if we saw more blank slates or at least a version of ourselves and our wants  in erotic content there would be a much larger audience.

I am a white, straight woman in Canada. I am privileged. There are so many more important things for people to fight for…  I feel that accurate representation of all women in all our forms is a small thing that can lead to a greater understanding. Right now we see only a few facets… lets seek more, less lacquered versions. There are thousands upon thousands of women who marched today wanting more… there are many battles, both big and small that are still waging for woman in every kind of world the earth provides. Let’s stand together and ask for more.


The Hunt for White October…


The perfect dress. You will just “know” that it is the one. Well at least that is what all the shows on TLC tell you. The truth is I have tried on 10 dresses. Some were obviously not right… like the pink bedazzled one that could stand on its own. In between all the scary dresses, I have found 2 really strong contenders. But something is missing.

So here is my question… Is there really something missing or is it just that I’ve been taught to expect to much?

The perfect dress should be comfortable, it should make you look like the best version of yourself, it should feel like me. I think thats not too much to expect considering the price tag.

I just don’t want to turn into one of those brides that has tried on 30,000 dresses and all the consultants in the lower mainland have my photo on some kind of bridezilla databank.

About the title & photo:

Also as I was finishing up this post I realized that the title should be “The Hunt For White October” and laughed really hard. So I did it, and then I remembered that Sean Connery wears a wedding dress in Zardoz and everything came together really well



Movies, Uncategorized

La La Land


My current career crisis has lead to a lot of introspection… I’ve been looking back on my life and on the things that make me truly happy. Some are obvious. Like my fiancee, my pets, and books. Others have been a complete surprise. Like cooking. Some are hard to cop to and even harder to do *cough* writing *cough*.  But some are things I’ve lost track of or have loved a little less deeply in the last few years. Like musicals.

My grandmothers favorite movies were the musicals of her childhood. Together we watched Funny Face, Easter Parade, Meet Me In St Louis, White Christmas, My Fair Lady, Singing in The Rain, but we watched Wizard of Oz the most. I was obsessed. At age 4 I could would do the Tin Man dance in the kitchen with a funnel on my head.

There is something so vivid about the musicals of the 50’s and 60’s. Colour was new. The worlds on the screen became so beautifully saturated with it. It is something we so rarely see outside of Wes Anderson movies. Don’t get me wrong, I love me some darkness. But the newer movies that I really truly love are able to capture some of that particular type of nostalgia, and make me feel some of the wonderment I felt as a kid watching Judy Garland spin around in a pretty dress before a painted skyline.

La La Land checked all of those boxes for me. The love for those films is even part of the narrative of the film. I was enraptured, the only thing that pulled me out was Miss Patty’s being featured multiple times… The costuming and sets are so wildly hypnotic. Musically speaking, I do believe that this film will continue the work of Sharon Jones and Charles Bradley and make Jazz cool again.

Diving down this rabbit hole has been a welcome distraction from my job hunt. If you are ever stressed or worn out, go to your local library, borrow some DVDs and let your self get wrapped up in the warm blanket that is Judy Garland –  THE EARLY YEARS, not the Valley of The Dolls years. Although that is an amazing story in all its forms.



About Me, Books

January Reading List


I am in a very strange place in my life. We own our adorable home, we own our truck, we’re getting married and we live in a place we’ve been wanting to live for more than 4 years. So much is working out but the one thing that really isn’t is my work life.

I truly loved my last job. It was close to my house, the work was rewarding, I liked my co-workers, and I got to hold puppies and kittens all day. I’m finding it so tough to take on a job that I don’t love as much.

I am in a position where I am so unsure of what I want to do… I am applying to a workshop program with SFU but I may not get in and its not for something that would make me money right away or at all.

With my all of this confusion I’ve decided that January will be a month of inspirational and educational books.Not necessarily self help books, but books that had in the past lit a small fire somewhere inside me.

So we have Tiny Beautiful Things by Cheryl Strayed. A.K.A the book I give people they are going through something. “Let yourself be gutted. Let it open you. Start here.”

Treasure Island by Sara Levine is a book about a well educated woman who has held a string of hapless dead end jobs and then decides out of blue to live her life by the core values of Robert Louis Stevenson’s Treasure Island. Boldness, Resolution, Independence and Horn Blowing.

Big Magic Creative Living Beyond Fear… I am literally afraid of this book, so I hope that means it can give me some guidance. I have a lot of fear about writing and putting it out there.

Writing About Literature, yes this is a text book. I would like to be able to write more cohesively about what I am reading rather then just EXPLODING disjointedly.




One down, 149 to go.


I just finished a book that has given me new dream job aspirations…

The Bookshop on the Corner by Jenny Colgan is about a woman named Nina who is about to loose her job because the library she works at is closing down. Her home is beginning to sag from the weight of all the books she saves from the trash. She decides to open a bookshop, but with out the funds to lease a space she starts looking at trucks and opens a bookmobile and returns a love of reading to a quiet highland town.

All I have ever wanted to do is read books and talk about books and recommend books… but library jobs are hard to come by even with a Masters, and bookshops keep thinking I am over qualified… so maybe this is an option. I could just drive around to beaches, fairs, flea markets and campgrounds selling gently used books.

I’ve already started a pinterest board about it.